Just When I thought I had no more tears to cry

Yes! I Screwed Up This Week! Now if only someone could put me outta my misery....Broke up with my the one guy i truly because my emotions got confused when another guy kissed me...so i thought i was doing the right thing....only managed to hurt both myself and jon...and now i just wanna die...i already managed to break my own heart...not to mention that i should go to hell for hurting jon whose only crime was loving me... id do anything to have him back too.....i never loved anyone like i love him and yet i managed to screw it up all cuz of another guy....i am so stupid....i wish i could just erase the past week like it never happened...then i'd still be with jon....now i have to wait for him decided if i am worth giving a second chance...i suck at being patient...lol...i cant even get a good night sleep....and just when you think i cant cry anymore i can .... i hate crying too but this time its worth the tears.....